Inside my Head

The place where there are more snippets of what goes on in my head all the time or whatever this is yet another outlet :D

This Week My Article Entitled "Harlem Premier of "Homegoings" at the Apollo Theatre" was both featured as the lower left cover story and published in the Harlem News and was additionally published in Harlem World Magazine!

 


Correction:

The Apollo Theatre with historical preservation from financing provided by UMEZ, who additionally has funded other small businesses in Upper Manhattan, was just one of the presenters of the film along with Firelight Media.

Stroll

“An early-morning walk is a blessing for the whole day”.  ~Henry David Thoreau

I actually enjoy walking, but there’s a difference between the walk we take to reach a destination like work or school, and the walk we take just to take a walk. I don’t get to take the uninhibited walk often but when I do, I walk! I think God enjoys when we enjoy small satisfactions like that, the simple things whether walking, wheeling in a wheelchair or just breathing. But walking I think has another purpose, its one of the best times to reconnect with God made tough in the city with the amount of distractions we face, but nonetheless a great time to reconnect with God.

God created us to be in fellowship with Him. Do the hairs on your neck or the goose bumps on your arms rise in excitement when you read how He walked in the Garden with Adam and Eve. I imagine it was in the cool of day as the sun was setting. He probably asked Adam and Eve how their day was, about their dreams and desires, not because He didn’t know though, but just because. God still wants to walk with us.

Patience

We all want control, I know I want it all the time, I want to control the outcome of situations, the way things will flow, the way things will start and end, and even who will take part. It’s a very deep desire we have within us, I imagine it has something to do with being made in God’s image and having a little of that desire to be sovereign inside of us. But the real test of patience is not when we get our way and when we have control over things or so it might seem, the real test of patience is when we let go of whatever reins we attempted to set on the situation and just let God work on us, in us, and among us. 

I know a lot of times when my actions say other, when it feels like i’m not seeing the results i would like to see, and I’m just feeling broken, torn, or just worn. It is not that I don’t believe that God’s Sovereignty isn’t reigning forever rightly at that time, its more so that I fear the lack of control that I have over the situation. This is when it is best for us and me even to be patient, and wait for whatever that situation calls for. But to wait patiently none the less as tough as it is.

I pray that your holidays are going well!! And that this offered some encouragement to you today! God Bless!! Happy Holidays!!

Matter

"Our greatest fear should not be failure but of succeeding at things in life that don’t really matter." -Francis Chan

The lack of posts lately has happened with my ups and downs of job searching, and the holiday transition. But in the midst of all of that this quote resonated with me this morning. The chance to succeed at something that doesn’t really matter has always been on the forefront of my mind for as long as I can remember. Sometimes its really tough to be talented at things, and not get so wrapped up in it that you forget to live and love. That you stay clear of being motivated by the like, love and approval of people but instead love on them, like them, and seek of the approval of God. My encouragement for you today is live the life God has given you to live, even if its not perfect right now because only you can live that life, but in the midst of it, be His hands and feet to the best of your ability in the strength that he gives and is giving you! 

Thank you so much for following my posts, for your support, and I pray God’s comfort and strength upon you as we celebrate this Holiday Season.

Interference

…”It’s my responsibility to respect people, to help them learn the lessons life teaches. When you slip on a banana skin and fall down, discuss what happened and learn from it. I think that it is actually unwise to get in between people and what life is trying to teach them, but we all have a responsibility for each other.” 

― Johann Christoph Arnold, Drained: Stories of People Who Wanted More


If you’ve been following my posts you probably know enough about me to know my heart right? To know at a young age I wanted to be the one to rescue the underdogs and to show them love, and to give them hope. I myself was an underdog, and that type of action kept me encouraged to keep pressing forward in life and to hold onto Faith. As i became older and the problems of children faded, and became the problems of teens and then young adults my heart shifted even more. I thought I could help others by blocking them from all sides of trouble, I thought that if I could just warn them of everything and tell them to stay away from danger that it would keep them safe. But what I learned was that when I did that I was blocking them from learning, not that I would let them just fall into a ditch metaphorically speaking but I would instead give them the tools to think better and fuller about situations if possible. God gave me wisdom through the heart-break that I went through when my friends and associates fell into danger and brokenness in spite of my efforts to save them. I learned my responsibility was not to save them at every turn but to love them, bear with them and pray with them.

Waste Not!

“I will not waste my life! I will finish my course and finish it well. I will display the Gospel of the grace of God in all I do. I will run my race to the end.” - Paul” 
― John PiperDon’t Waste Your Life

I have a couple of friends who have just settled, settled into whatever situation that they are in right now, even though it isn’t the place of rest nor is it the place of progress, instead it is the place of death in my opinion. Many times my heart hurts because I know they can be so much better than where they are, so much better, they have lost their dreams, their hopes, their visions, it used to depress me so much because I would spend every ounce of my being trying to push them forward out of the pit. But one day I discovered that as much as I love them, if they don’t move themselves to get out of the pit, there is nothing I can do. The best I can do is be there when they need me, but I need to not waste my life, because just like them I only get one course, one life, and I want to finish well. So all you racers out there pushing forward in this marathon of life, keep moving forward, but when those stragglers finally make it to the side of you, hopefully they will at some point, don’t forget to welcome them back to the race!

Stay Encouraged!! Enjoy your weekend!! God Bless!!

Greatness

“It is about the greatness of God, not the significance of man. God made man small and the universe big to say something about himself.” -John Piper

I have lived in the city my whole life, surrounded by light all the time, I only see a maximum of maybe 5 stars when I look up at the sky depending on the season. But i remember the first time i saw the expanse of the sky. I was away at my very first mission trip in New Jersey, it was in 2004 with CCC I was staying in a cabin. That night when I arrived I looked at the expanse of the heavens and I was scared in awe! It was so overwhelming I think I understood what Abraham might have felt when God told him to step out of the tent to see how numerous his seed would be. I felt utterly insignificant compared to the numerous abundance of stars, something so simple that we can take for granted especially if we are not exposed all that often to it. The Greatness of God!

Love

" I will give you this, my love, and I will not bargain or barter any longer. I will love you, as sure as He has loved me. I will discover what I can discover and though you remain a mystery, save God’s own knowledge, what I disclose of you I will keep in the warmest chamber of my heart, the very chamber where God has stowed Himself in me. And I will do this to my death, and to death it may bring me.
I will love you like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding you love, trading for your love, gaming for your love. I will simply love. I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin its time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again.
God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him, unto us.”  -Donald Miller, in Blue Like Jazz


Finally the day came when I no longer fought to find love, because love finally came to be. My whole life i fought for love, fought for it on my conditions, where is the love that loves as i love, i always complained, and after many many many many years of crying and praying, finally right now here is the time where love has finally come to be. 

Stay Encouraged my friends! God Bless!!